Sunday, April 10, 2005

脾氣

一直都覺得自己是個脾氣很差的人。
不太懂控制自己的情緒。
很有可能,某年某月會殺人不眨眼。
但如果你問十個認識我的人,
(尤其是那些我在加拿大認識的朋友)
可能九個都會說我像羊。
不會兇,不會發脾氣。

小時候的我,
會因為一些很小的事情而很“抿憎”。
把床墊被單全都丟出去,
有很多東西都給我摔破摔爛。
就算摔破的是我心愛的東西,
我也不會後悔。
不是說我家教不嚴,
我覺得就是太嚴了才會這樣。
心裡的感受壓抑得太利害,
不能表達,慢慢也就不會表達了。
會哭、會破壞、會寫一些東西發洩。
但不會溝通、不會解決問題。
這可能也會成為以後我對待自己的小孩的反面教材。

後來上了大學,
做運動、跑步就成為了我抒發情緒的方法。
不開心嗎?憤怒嗎?煩惱嗎?
跑它一兩里就好多了。
對身體又比較好,一舉兩得。
跟哭、摔東西、喝酒、吸煙相比,
這樣好像比較有建設性。
當然有一些人會去唱歌,
那也很好啊!
有機會的話一起去吧!

現在的我,
好像很難有那一道火氣。
有甚麼好氣的呢?
世界上甚麼人都有、
甚麼事都可能發生。
那麼快又一個禮拜,
那麼快又一年,
那麼快又一輩子了。

[marz] @ 4/10/2005 06:00:00 p.m.

1 Comments:

# at 4/11/2005 10:52:00 a.m., Blogger Kelvin said... Everyone has bad temper, but I think it's really rare that someone realizes their own bad tempers. I think that fact that you knowing yourself has a bad temper makes you a 羊. :)  

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